full tank

while returning home, keep thinkin why is beng the one who is doin the scoldin. where he stand in the situation? is he jokin? but his words are kinda true~... its really suxs to b blame for hurtin ur friend. the feeling is just liek 5 yrs ago. incident between mi n brian young in pula wubin.

i was suppose to be his partner for the whole trip but i left him during the last 30 mins. he was left behind n got injurd. the wound is deep n big. every one blame mi for not takin care of him as he is a weak cyclist. i was too sorry to say any thing at that time as indeed i have a part to play. they keep blaming mi and on final day i tok back on y he is so weak. coudn't take care of him self. fall down liao still blame mi. how old liao? that guy cound not take it and give mi a fist. being unpopular, i was not sided while every one surrounded the guy.... y i did not fight back. coz there was once my dad wack mi hard for fighting. only bar-bear-rean do that.

all i ment is to help. gong... be strong n stand for ur self... u are just doing things which she don even noe. maybe she got reason? y torture ur self like tat? get to the pt and stop guessing...

i admit i am tut. unable to c the big picture. but y will u people just can't sit down n do things up.

is being friends really thats hard? having to hide things from each other n suspect each other....

i am neither better, always tokin bad on people while they are just another reflection of mi. feeling so tried... i can take no more. i shall stop commin online