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thats was about 2 yr ago ba~ b4 that incident my relation with pig was still not bad but rat got gossip that pig treat people who don perform well badly(don give much attention and give that buay song face to them). due to n level, we was about to take leave. thats y i wan to slowly step down all my duty. that event in augst which happen in santosa. we had told them that we beri relucten to go camp although we sign the consent form liao la. than we reluctenly agree to b assitance but last min pung seh pig coz we go out with jimmy, ji xin and sean. than we make a effoert to meet pig from 7 to 8++ but pig give that hot happy face. he even told us that he was beri dissapointed with our action.

we were beri mad as, if we go for that event, we will b a bunch of fool walkin around wasting our time lo. moreever the event run well without us. y not let us go n spend our time well and the most join u all for few hours for gathering la... is that beri unfair to u all? really don get it. is our accopany that important?(hr really remind us of out mother sia~ always wan us stay at home n rot)

from then on, we got cold war and we try to talk, but donno y. the feeling is liek we are beri fake to each other. more to muture respect style rather than man to man talk whcih we used to have.

just fews week b4. i met pig for comming back. the problem of mi is that i am beri beri beri beri beri sick of comming back company to sever by just being around and take attandance. this feeling sucks. just as if u are wasting ur own time, your youth. but pig just don seems to b able to understand what is the problem. he keep wanting me t serve full time and did not event give mi a clear position if i am comming back to serve. all he tell mi is that "ask god for what he wan u to go". My immidate respond for this is (in my mind la) 'wa liao eh... the whole company is under ur hand n u still dare to tell mi to ask god.' y go n waste my time to ask god whle i got my ans with u? i was totally pissed off and really feel like banging my head on wall... he keep telling mi that the coy need mi veri much. But when i tell him what position is there a need?, he cound not give mi a ans other than CE. Therefore i shall be CE teacher as there is a need for mi over there.

Summary: pls la..... i am sick n tired of comming back n rot by taking attandance wasting my youth away. Just give mi a post n i shall devote my soul in it and finish it well. I just hate the feeling of bordom. Finally, pray hard that i may be able t tok to pig about our problem n return to the first love we have for each other. .....